Remain Fuzzy In The Fuzzy Blue Light

Damn, this song is awesome ! I super like this song call 'Fuzzy Blue Light'. The reason I like it is because of the rhythms of this song is so calm and peace. So like usual, when I addicted to it, I will go search for the lyric . I got struck by the lyrics, it really really speak about what I am facing and how I felt.

A lot of time we might think that this particular person don't need us anymore or the friendship between each other gone worse. We actually sometime struggle with ' is he/she still care about me as a friend ?', 'how can he/she treat me like that when he/she said that I are important' and bla bla bla. Well, actually all these incident like ignoring, mistreating or whatever happen is because of two reason, one is our fault or another one is there is actually nothing happen.

Of course u may ask, why would I said nothing happen. Well a lots of time we think that our friend didn't care for us or mistreat us is because we think too much and we didn't notice their love language. Let me give u an example:

A & B are best friend. A always tell other that B is the one and only person that she care the most but B didn't think so. B thought that all those things that A said is just crap because A didn't really show it out. Because of this, they actually had a conflict with each other.

Okay now can u see what is the situation is ? Basically, A's love language is 'say it with words' but B's love language is 'say it with action'. So if B take the initiative to look at A's love language, I can say both of them will not had any conflicts.

So now a question to you, after u have knew this things, will u applied it on ur daily life ?

Next I shall continue with the reason of our fault. Well, isn't it easy to understand ? The explanation is pretty simple, we have made our friends feel disgust or hurt and the result is they choose to isolate with us. Maybe u will said ' I also don't know when I got hurt him/her'. Well, DO UR OWN REFLECTION or if u really can't figure it out, ask that particular person.

Anyway, this is a little bit of my thinking. I am not trying to ask u to do so, I'm just sharing out my thought. Do comment me if there is something wrong.

Crossroad

Was super super hard to get up from my bed due to the late-sleeping habit that i got but still i had to wake up cause it's Sunday & I have go church. So, I quickly took my shower to refresh myself and get my self prepare to go to church.

Once I arrive church, i sat beside my all-time buddy, James and while waiting for the worship begin, I start doing my journal as I didn't did it yesterday. James is one of the appear to be my only friends i had in church, we did a lot of things in the past which I am not really proud of. Due to my bad ego in the past, he actually get influenced by me. I feel kinda guilty as he seem to be less interest on God. Hopefully my change after JS will be able to change his mindset as well.

Anyway the service on today was good, the message talks a lot of false teaching & consequences of false teaching. The preacher actually took a book from bible call Jude which i don't really notice that book, I guess I need more time to spend on bible.

After service, I actually bump into my schoolmate, Willa and Noah which is also a JS alumni. We had a normal chit chat on our result and our future. Well nothing much, but one question that stuck me is why am I going for A-level ? I had really really hard time struggling with the psychology and quantity surveying and now a new question bump to me.

Luckily on that night when I call Cindel, she manage to help me overcome it. Both of us actually get the same thing from God which is go study A-level. Well i put my trust on my God, I know He will have a way for me. So after all this, I now left one big question, Psychology or Quantity surveying.

Dear God I know u are there, please give me a confirmation.

Random Flashback

'Set Your To The Lord But To Satan' this is a note i wrote three years ago. I wrote is because that time I wanted to keep remind myself that i shouldn't sin. But things seem to be not really good, my life getting worse and I always pray that God will change me. I don't want to be backslide christian, I wanna live my life fruitful but I just can't, my wisdom is not enough for me to change.

Well things change through Jeremiah School. It was totally a 180 degree change for me. All I can say is God really bless me and work with me :)

Now that everything had come to an end, I wish to serve Him more because i wanna make a very firm foundation for my change. I don't want to go back to the life that I had last year. Dear God, please grant me strength.

p/s: sorry the picture is kinda blur.

Moments with DSLR

Today, my brother suddenly got the thought of capturing bird so he put out his tripod and start 'sniper-ing' for some birds. Unfortunately he didn't caught any (pity him) and come back in with his sweaty body. So i borrowed his DSLR and go look around for some nice picture, here is what i get (please bare with it because it's quite random)

The pink guava flower around my house

A bird in action !

Random cat's picture
'Reptiles' on the move

That's the end, hope u guys like it

Welcoming The King-Kong and Masochistic

Woke up at 9.30am by my alarm, then i set another alarm to make sure that i won't go over time. After that, i on my computer and start playing it (Haha how lifeless am i right ?) Anyway about 12pm, i follow my dad's car for lunch and he fetch me to the KTM station. Thanks God that I don't have to walk to KTM station this time as i always walk whenever I wanted to go that KTM station.

Anyway, I reached KL sentral 10mins earlier than Samuel and Titus so i go and brought an ice-cream and wait for them. By the time I sit down on the chair, my phone rang and it was Samuel. He said he reach already and asking where am I. I replied him that I am at Mcd but instead of letting him and Titus get lost i asked where are them. After knowing where they are i walk to that place and meet. It kinda disappoint to see them no changes, as usual Samuel still like to wear the 'freshly squeeze' shirt and Titus' hair is still the same mohawk. Later only i found out Titus actually grow thinner, I won't notice that unless he told me.

So after all those travel which I don't want to write it here, we continue our day at Eric's TERRITORY. It was nice, we had a lot of fun and jokes due to the present of those three extrovert. After dinner, we spend some over Eric's house and then when clock strike 10.30pm Eric's dad fetch me and Samuel back to Serdang. Oh well all i can say for today is just simply nice.

Introvert That Act Like Extrovert

An usual night, an usual camp, an usual game after the session. As people were having fun, this guy inside the crowd enjoying looking at his friends having fun. When the time he need to talk, he choose the best sentence out of hundreds option in his inner brain before he speak, thus the sentence that come out from him may not hurt the others. When the clock strike eleven, he and his friends go back to their respective bed to get some rest, like others he pretend to be reluctant to go to bed. As light go out, like others he close his eye but he still remain awake, he was waiting for the perfect timing to 'recharge' himself. Hours later, this guy open his eye, he look at the people around him, then he get down from his bed with a satisfied smile. He put on his jacket as the weather outside might kills him then he open the door and went outside as he feel uneasy to do his 'recharging' with people around him. In the dark, he walked to his favorite spot, there is a chair and a table over there, people might see that place as a normal place but to him that place is like a 'recharge' station. He then put his butt on that cold chair and start exploring his thoughts and feeling that he have been through for the whole days. As he was doing his exploring, he take out his journal book and start writing down everything that appear in his mind. He love doing this but he never did this in front of his friends. He think that people will see him facing depression, but to him, he is just simply enjoying the time to be with his own thought. After awhile, he is done with his 'recharge', he stand up and walk back to the dorm to get some rest. For him the 'recharging' time is simply a time that he spend with his own thought and the reason he choose to do this on that time is because he don't want people to know that he is an introvert. He is wearing a extrovert mask in the crowd.

Dear God, HELP

Have a bad flu combine with sore throat and headache since yesterday, totally can't think straight and the worst things is i can't hear God probably. I got super duper lots of question to ask and it seem that my body is dragging me from God's voice. Feel so lost and weak. I have done everything that i could: rest, medicine, drink more water, now all that i could do is just ask for His healing in the meanwhile wait for the person that He send to me.



Dear God please send someone to solve my problems.

New Boy In Town

Hey this is my first personal blog. I used to have one but that was a sharing blog with my best friend- Kim Yoong. At first, both of us really put our effort on it but sooner or later we both lose the desire to blog so we leave that blog growing mushroom. Anyway this time i create a new blog mainly because i am bored, haha. Hope u guys would like it.